Certain Tummy Thoughts

I am dieting these days, and started practicing a little bit of exercises too. Not that I have put on much weight to lose, but coz of having a big tummy. I used to deny this for quite some time, as my mind carried the image of the skinny body that I had. My big fat tummy began to worry me when people started noticing it and commenting, “Hey! Your tummy is so big!” Tummy is the worst place to carry fat deposits, especially for women... It’s very embarrassing!

Don’t be under the false notion that I am a real foodie, coz this is one of the most upsetting part of my work. Right from 9 in the morning to 5.30 in the evening I need to fix myself on the chair, immovable, as I will be busy with loads of writing works to do. No exercise and no walk, and my tummy grew bigger with fat deposits.

The only exercise that I did was the evening walks down the street, just to have those yummy ‘bhelpuris’. But I had to forcefully bring it to a halt as they started ruining the ambience of my stomach.

People who know about my tummy problem are very eager to shower their tummy reducing tips on me. Those boring, repetitive and unworkable tips that they have been trying for quite a long time! Hearing that I would mutter… It’s easy to advice baby! Practice it and reduce yours first!

But dieting is not that easy. It’s really hard to stop looking at those mouth-watering dishes that I used to enjoy before. Therefore I get really uneasy, & feel really dumb, when my friends tell me how hard I try to reduce my tummy size. I wonder whether I should correct them or not, to tell them that not much of change has happened, that I eat those junk foods every now and then, as I can’t live without it. How will I reduce my tummy size without changing my eating habits?

The tragedy reiterates!

‘Karthik Rajaram, a 45-year-old man, was found dead on Monday after blowing off the lives of six family members in a murder-suicide.’

‘Suspect Devan Kalathat Victims Akhil Dev,Negha Dev,Ashok Appu Poothemkandi,Suchitra Sivaraman,Ahana Ashok, Santa Clara Family Murder Suicide’

If Karthik had an anecdote of financial difficulty, the reason behind grisly Santa Clara murder-suicide is still unknown!

Why did Devan Kalathat, the family man and senior software engineer, buy two .45 semi-automatic handguns? Why did he slay his family and end-up his life? What was bubbling beneath his calmness?

Countless number of questions arose in my brain on hearing the heartbreaking tragedy at Santa Clara.

I took the flash news only as a usual story of financial difficulty due to layoffs, which is the child of the economic downturn. But initial reports have ruled out such a cause and pointed the probability of “difficult family dynamics” that might have spiraled into violence, claiming six lives.

Devan who mercilessly blew away his two young kids and three other relatives in the murder-suicide had posted a few photos on his Flicker page, make one believe his to be a happy, close-knit family.

Indians immigrants like Devan, who end up their lives abruptly, leave behind a number of unanswered questions about the reason behind such gruesome acts. On hearing such incidents I really get bewildered about the reason why a family that seemed to be happy, got wiped off all on a sudden. How can a person become so cruel to kill his family so mercilessly? Or does he feel contented watching the the physical pain of others. Yet to be ‘researched’!

PS- As usual, people will shake heads and leave this story too. Poor family, we may mutter for a day or two, sympathize for their kith and kin, and then forget the whole episode soon! The world is so damn busy!