Blogging Ahoy!

I was wondering why I am not writing anything these days. I had made up my mind to write something amid my work schedule but somehow couldn’t make it happen.

I never used to bottle up anything inside my heart, as I always used to write them in my blog. But when I had Shirley with me, I rarely had anything to pen-down. My blogging had to take a backseat as she used to be my wonderful listener. But now that I have to give her the privacy that she needs (she got married to her dear ‘chachan’ last month), writing is what I feel as the best option, like how I always used to.

But I think it is really good to have someone who can listen to you, and I have always felt that she is the best listener I have ever seen. After meeting her, even I too wanted to change a little more and be a better listener. There is a big reason behind this. When we have something bad happening around us, or when we don’t feel good, we need someone to whom we can share our difficult emotions. It is not at all for any sort of solutions, as most of us are smart enough to tackle our problems easily. But you would definitely long for someone to whom you can just share our feelings, or someone who listens and understands us and say a word of comfort in the most tender and loving way. May be in a few simple words, but those words have a lot to give. They make us really feel better and take us back to a stable state from where we can think about a satisfying solution to the baffling issue that we have.

To avoid uncomfortable feelings at work place or personal life is not easy. But we can tackle these challenging parts of our life with the help of a good friend. For me, my blog has always been my best companion. I used to bottle up everything inside my heart before, but later started to write in my blog. Comments, good and bad and at times worst and offensive, slowly started pouring in. I threw away the worst and offensive and accepted the good as well as the bad ones.

Then came Shirley, and I slowly started slipping away from writing a little, as I always had an opening to share my thoughts. Now that I want to give her the needed privacy, I have to depend on my blogging and will be writing about my happiness, turmoil and tensions again.

Some of my readers had commented very badly about my blogs, saying that I take this as a platform to give away my frustrations. But it’s not true.

I have to work my ass off the whole day; inexplicably tiring, yet I try my best to find happiness. Well, I know that it’s not a great thing as we all do work very hard, don’t we? But it’s difficult to handle selfish and backbiting corporate environment alone. Here it’s all about winning as much as you can, and how you achieve it is not an issue. You are always free to trample the hard work, dedication and emotions of others to get a quick victory. Back to hostel, I have my music system and my books to spend time. But I think writing is the best or rather a great thing that one can adopt, rather than ruminating all alone over repetitive thoughts. Why not share it with others???

So blogging ahoy!

A tragic tale with a realistic touch

It was a Sunday afternoon & both I and Shirley were in her room talking about some random things. Actually we don’t run out of things to talk about but the afternoon discussion was about the movie ‘Fashion’ by Madhur Bhandarkar. I was kinda literally going gaga over the movie and the actresses who played the lead roles when Shirley started telling me about Gia Carangi, a name that I had never heard in my life. She began telling about the destruction of life & carrier of Gia Carangi, the movie based on her life and about Angelina Jolie’s praiseworthy performance as Gia. She really wanted me to see the movie & know more about 'Gia' before creating hype and hoopla over ‘Fashion’.

The next day was a little hectic but I managed to get some time during the lunch break as I was so curious to read about Gia. I found a few pictures of Gia from a website. Innocent face, seductive and erotic body, I am sure she might have been the photographer’s favorite during her days. But it’s sad that Gia’s life reached nowhere and she ended up as an AIDS victim at the age of 26. Although drug addiction is a hard to defend reason, I felt so sorry for her and her tragic fall. A needy and lonely woman left all alone amid riches that she hardly bothered about! What she wanted is the love and care that she hadn’t received all throughout her life. It’s sad that we most of us take the love, warmth and care that we get for granted whereas life people like Gia end-up longing for love.

After seeing the pictures of Gia, and reading about her sad story I really wanted to see the movie & the way Angelina Jolie has portrayed Gia. Shirley had told me that Angelina Jolie has done quite a great job portraying Gia in the movie. Unfortunately I couldn’t get the CD! So I searched for some clipping of ‘Gia’ in YouTube. I couldn’t see much of Angelina Jolie’s laudable performance as Gia, but could feel the depth of the story. I also found quite a few well written reviews about ‘Gia’ read them one by one.

After reading a few, I should say that the movie literally got stuck in my head. The movie ‘Fashion’ doesn’t have anything praiseworthy when compared to ‘Gia’; and about the models and their rise and fall, I felt ‘Gia’ would be worst that someone can face in her life. In fact it is really hard to see someone who has success safe on her platter plunging down deep in to a ditch so quickly, like what happed to Gia Carangi.

Well, after that short and brief research about the movie and about Gia Carangi I kinda stopped talking about the movie ‘Fashion’! (lol)