We had feelings for each other.
As the feelings got stronger, we got into a relationship.
The relationship turned into love and got immensely serious.
We loved each other like dew’s love for parched leaves.
Until…
Expectations uprooted whatever we had between us.
And we parted ways to never meet again.
Have you been there, done that, and wished you hadn't? If so, you and I made the same mistake - We believed that love is a two-way street. We always carried the misguided belief that it is ok to have expectations in love. That’s exactly where we were wrong.
So, together let’s correct that mistake. Before we go any further, let me ask you this simple question - Is love a one-way street/a two-way street? If you are wondering why I asked the question, here is the answer – Now, I think love is/should be a one-way street.
Let me explain why. When you start expecting reciprocity, or has a slew of expectations, you will always expect the other person to live up to them. And at some point, if that person lets you down or leaves you, your world comes crashing down on you. That's exactly how you will feel until you muster the strength and positivity to move on. Trust me, I’ve been there, and that is the worst feeling ever. In every love story that turns cold over time, the culprit is almost always the expectations that partners have of each other. You start knowing you partner, get intimate, and walk hand in hand along the path towards fulfilling love; yes, expectations can obviously happen. When those expectations aren’t met, you get heartbroken.
Expectations make you feel entrapped, and pain becomes the new normal, because you always expect your partner to say/do certain things, but he/she may fail at times. What if you deliberately avoid keeping any expectations? Unlike the common perception, selflessness and living without expectations is not a tightrope walk where there is always the risk of slipping or falling. It’s all about having the will and confidence to love with the strong belief that you have nothing to lose when you love someone without expecting anything in return. If you can do that, you will stop ruminating on reciprocity. You will be more mindful and will learn to live in the moment.
They say love happens when two people feel the same way. For me, love can happen even if the feeling is one-sided. Here is the caveat – Do not expect anything return, be it love or friendship. You love someone because you want to, and that’s a conscious choice you make. Despite all the flaws, you love him/her every single day, because you want to. However, the problem arises when you are hell-bent on wanting the same amount of love in return, or you want to end up with the person you choose to love. If the other person fails to reciprocate the same feelings, you will feel angry and betrayed.
The question here is, who is the reason behind the pain and agony? It’s you. Let’s look at it objectively. You entered the relationship with a long checklist. Without knowing what your partner’s feelings are, you kept yearning for his/her time, affection, comfort, support, and undivided attention. In other words, you entered the relationship with a clear agenda in mind.
Does that mean wanting all of these is bad, or wanting to be loved, is wrong. I am not saying it is wrong, in fact, the desire to be loved is quite natural. However, when it becomes contractual, and when both partners have a slew of agendas, things can become very problematic. You end up bargaining, and you end up losing each other.
Does that mean one should fail to draw boundaries, settle for being used and unloved, and let the other person take all intimate benefits? No, absolutely not! While you try to establish a special and selfless relationship that is free from selfishness and possessiveness of any sort, protect yourself from being exploited. Make sure that your relationship is healthy and is built on mutual respect. This will help protect yourself from pain and loss of self-esteem and sanity.
When it comes to figuring out if someone is using you, or is emotionally manipulative, here is my advice - always trust your instincts, because those are messages that come straightaway from your soul. If you do not want to be near that person, do not dwell too much on it, instead cut them out of your life completely. However, that should not rob you of the ability to love without any expectations. Less expectations = less disappointments and more peace of mind.
Do not expect a relationship to happen; if it works out, perfect, if not, move on! After all, we only have one life to live. There is no pause or rewind button.